after so long while..

Too long since the last day the desire was there. There were so much happening around and yet, i am still evolving in my own world. A world that didnt evolved too much. A world that lack of world exposure. ONe more sem to go and there my come my freedom. Didnt plan to do what after that but must make myself pass. A year stayback will make the world waiting even longer. People said, future architect and i said, no.. It wasnt the way it suppose. To be a doctor, u need commitment and to be an architect, u certainly have to have it too. Lack of it mean gone..

To be alive in architecture wasnt easy. Staying awake for 24 hours a day isnt enough and not the point. You got to have talent and all rounded to be ' kiasu' enough to be an architect if you lack of some talent. ALOHA, trying so damn hard. Really really out of ordinary. It been 2 and a half year since the time when i come to architecture. two year. not a simple story. Maybe i should just be a lecturer haha.. To revenge.. haha..

I miss you, my bed. It is so damn long since the last day when i really fall asleep in peace. It been so hard. We are not zombie. Neither we are vampire. We dont eat apple, we dont eat blood, we eat time. Rushing behind all the time.

Guess when it is time to lay back. I noticed there were so much happening around. Everyone tend to have a new story to tell. I am a bit upset as not being able to share part of it. It is. Regret shouldnt be the word at all as this is what i chosen. Just that, i am standing aside watching all the happening, at times, i do felt happy and glad as whoa.. I knew the person in the screen, glad he or she achieve so much. Proudly to tell the pal next to me that, well, i knew him/her and there's the old story come back. Haha.. Maybe we will be stranger thru, but, that's the story to go on.

Where i suppose to render the left out picture, i stay lay back and writing this. Mind is too tired to continue. Hand is even stubborn to hear what i say. I hate this. After this, maybe no restriction and back to crazy imagination.. I am good at that this while. Imagination been a drive after all. :p For those who havent given up, thx and for those who were, it is ok, understandable.

WHOA>> LENKA song is making up mood..

Time just passed..

Second semester is certainly a nightmare. It is all about sacrification. You give and get another new things. Trying to adapt to this kind of life. Is not trying but really trying hard. Felt suffocated that I cant be the own self like what i wanted.

This is the lesson to be endured for one to growth up. Yet, the lesson is just too much. There is no air to breath and life were upside down once again. Believe or not i guess i lost many stuff this short period of time. I lost my stuff (crazy), i lost some of the friend and i lost the trust.


I have done whatever i have to do but at a certain time, i just hope that will give me a minute and let everything be clear. The selfish me tend to ignore some of them, i knew that yet i cant find anyway to compensate that. Just can hope that time will make them forget. After all, it took years for us to be this close, it took ages for one to find a real friend in life.

I have been acting childish all this while. I knew this is not easy to be tolerate. Yet, it took time for me to really adapting to the serious world. Something that i dont wish to be in. With the reality that hold on, this is just too much.


Architecture. IS this what i really want? A life of architecture kill many of my other interest. Things are not the same anymore. I lost myself somehow in the middle. Watching everyone here everyday and night. They became the pal of me and architecture.

I need a break for real. There is too much bad happening recently. Not those i wanted but those keep on happen to kill me. I am living in a world of my own for now. It is not easy for anyone to enter anymore. If last time was hard, now it turn impossible. Blog were my way to express this again. A copy that i might laugh back in the future.

MUM and DAD went vacation. After so long, they finally step out for their pleasure. Hope they will enjoy it more. And sorry again for being so mean all the while.

CHAOS

Aloha

Maybe i should learn to stick to something. I have too many blogs until i have no idea how to find it at times. Greedy is what you called. Trying to find a site that suit me most but ended up being too busy and get fed up.

Just a little to touch up. I am currently studing a course that most people think is professional, a bright future and so on. But to me, it seem way far from it. Talent is another matter. ID is the one holding me on. It is actually a fun course. We dont really have that crazy exam yet our assignment is the nightmare that we have.

Starting my fourth sem, a terrible one according to seniors. I think i have much more stuff to do. A time management to follow perhaps. Life been upside down so far. And more project coming non-stop. And Eunice asked me to take over her tuition job, gosh.. still in midst thinking shall i do so. I have plenty work yet, i wished that i can earned my own pocket money for my year end trip. Asking money from parent all the time should never be what a 21 years old can do. Dilemma on that...

On my effort trying very hard to keep fit but it just hard. It is hard to resist and Without those strong will, it just cant be done. But trust me,.. I am trying very hard not to add on weight. With some intention of course, just cant appear so damn FAT in front of certain people. Frust you know?

Life is precise. Time is fast. Assignment always there. Have to go. Chaos.
Glad i started to blog again.